After a long week of torturous waiting for test results to swing in my favour, it didn’t!
I was tired of fighting.
I was done filling the holes with hope.
This war is waged against my peace and this time I was overwhelmed.
Those tormenting “maybes” and “if-onlys” competed for my heart space.
-Maybe I should have prayed harder.
–Maybe I did something wrong.
–Maybe there was sin lurking around.
–Tears rolled down the face of a drained wrestler.
The one scripture that leaves me gulping my sputum. That same word dropped in my heart…
Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. –2 Timothy 2:3
I wrestled in my heart again…
“Endure hardness…. Lord but how long?” Trying to reason things out but I couldn’t come up with answers …or do I say… the right ones. My heart was fainting of discouragement, “encourage my faith dear Lord…”
If thou faint in the day of adversity, thy strength is small. –Proverbs 24:10
“If I faint, my strength is small…Lord I am weak and I am fainting…”
Then my wrestling ended.
I found peace when I asked for strength to keep pressing on amidst these trials.
Are you going through the self-same thing? Are you passing through turbulent times with your faith struggling and you are asking those hard questions? The Lord knows when you are weak. I want you to know, there is nothing to be ashamed of when the trial you face wearies you.
Friend, it is safe to rely on God in adversity. You can ask for His strength. (Psalm 6:2)
Let’s do this together;
Dear Lord, I ask for your strength, my heart faints, my eyes filled with tears…I am tired of fighting. Fight for me Lord. Take over every of my heart battles in Jesus name. Amen
I remembered Job. What an amazing hope he had despite God being silent for a long time! Those were longest and darkest days of his life, yet he chose God.
I now see hope as choosing God over and over, no matter how bleak!
Hope is Choosing God over and over!
Ever seen where a tree is cut down, yet God says there is hope for that tree…it will bud again…it will grow again…it will be fruitful yet again. All it needs is the scent of water……….. The scent of it!
Oh My did you catch that?
For there is hope of a tree, if it be cut down, that it will sprout again, and that the tender branch thereof will not cease. Though the root thereof wax old in the earth, and the stock thereof die in the ground; Yet through the scent of water it will bud, and bring forth boughs like a plant……. –Job 14:7-9
Prayer For When You Hope is Fiercely Shaken
Our Water of Life, Our hope in ages to come, Our Redeemer, Our Strength, we thank you for the hope and strength we have in You. We know You will make a way in this very difficult time. We choose hope and we choose you, Lord Jesus, over and over again. We are assured that nothing misses your attention, not even our pain or our heart cries. We look up to you with all that we have and with every fiber of our being. Oh Lord, reach us, touch us and heal us in the places where our hearts desperately calls for help in Jesus Name. Amen.
Ifeoma Samuel is privileged to be a Woman after God’s heart and is happily married to her sweet heart Obiora Samuel. She is the author of the new book My 30 Days Journey To a Fulfilled Life. You can find her blogging regularly at Purposeful and Meaningful You can also connect with her on Pinterest, Google+ and on Facebook.